Being a man is hard, it’s even worse when all you want to be is rich and hard. I’ve been talked out of having kids with anyone other than a person I would want to spend the rest of my life with. There is no sense in random unprotected sex. Although the draw is quite clear and evident to want and follow. It seems that only one woman can be in my life that is not directly related to me. Otherwise they are just to call me to see if I can afford them. I’m sure that female salespersons get very tired of trying to call me when I turn them all away and don’t allow them to touch what needs to stay with me. It is really hard to get a following when you can’t show love, especially in its physical form, as some people use childbirth as their demonstration. It is very difficult to see where my life is going with only myself to look out for, but I was promised to be better off.